Here i go again...

well, here goes

I am in a slightly depressed mood again! arghh :S

and again i feel its the same reasons that i cannot change or alter but that i have to put up with, double argh :S

I feel negative when I'm with what should be my best friend, alarm bells ring you shouldn't be friends with her you think, but i really don't think that is the case.

I think its just that we are two completely different souls and her opinions not only irritate the hell out of me but also upset me, of course she doesn't know this because that would upset her greatly and I'm not that type of person.

I see positive and wonderful aspects to her personality every day but the thing that annoys me the most, which sorry but happens with most people, is the fact that they are so strongly engaged in their own opinion that they never ever EVER see it any other way.. when she feels one way-whether it about someone or something ,there is no thinking any different.Another thing that i really can't stand is how people can judge a person when they might never be in their situation.

I think this just gets to me because i am an open minded person and i would always try to see more than my own perspective of things, and i certainly am not judgemental. Yes i have my opinions who doesn't, but i do not stick like glue to them. I am no way perfect but at least I'm trying to be the best person i can be, i just feel no one else is.

Just some uttered thoughts from my absolute Crazy! mind :P

emotions, crazyy stuff!

Lately I've just been feeling sad and I have no proper reason to feel so

Life is nothing to moan about at the moment, everything's pretty fine which is something not many people get to say but I still can't shake the feeling off.

This makes me feel guitly which then adds to my sadness..

all I can say is humans are crazy things! :P

like the moon, come out from behind the clouds! shine.

(The Buddha)

Little things...

Little things make me happy.

I love nothing better than having a piece of chocolate a diet coke/ fizzy drink/ cider and listening to a great cd.

Bliss hahah!

How I've been feeling recently...

okayyy, I'm going to be honest even if some people might judge me and think ill of me, but..


recently Ive just been picking up on the negative aspects of people's personality even my friends, and I do think to myself aw your not being fair, but that's part of the problem.

We all know nobody's perfect but I feel like no one's trying to make an effort and better themselves, improve their bad side. I mean when an argument breaks out its natural to have your own opinions but do you ever try and see it through someone else's point of view, TRY and understand what they're feeling.

I'm no angel but I feel like I do, maybe I just over analyse everything but I feel I do try and be fair. Well recently I've noticed I think I'm about the only one, and its just made me feel like why do I bother.


You guys probably think what is she making such a fuss about but that's how I've been feeling recently. I'm usually such a laid back person and it normally takes a lot to get me snappy or even irritable but I've noticed a change in myself.

arghh maybe its just a phase, I hope so

Decisions, decisions arghh

I had a conditional offer from Birmingham university and i feel surprisingly happy and positive. Even though i had no thought of actually going, i feel myself imagining actually leaving little old nant and venturing out on my own. Of course this will never happen and so i ask myself is university really the way for me or am i doing it because it's the natural step to take. How do people make these impossible decisions, please tell me. I wish i had a clear plan of action but me never! Well i guess we'll see what happens...

Well Hello,
I decided to create this blog because I realised how much i appreciate someone's words whether it is in a blog, in a book, in a song or even in person. Words have influenced me so much over the years, they can change how I feel in an instant, they can have a positive or a negative impact, they make me think and re evaluate a situation, they are a very important. So, I thought I would like to use words to show people how I feel about certain things and maybe make them think. Maybe no one will listen but I'm okay with that, I just need to do it.