all over

I loved the ball it was reaaally fun :D

It was nice being there with all my friends and teachers, and it was my birthday after 12 that night soo it was like a big party as well for me! :P

I don't know why i worried about it- there was no need!

That's the happy part but the sad part is that it's now officially over, no more all of us together again :(

I am genuinely sad as i can say High school was fab!

Oh well onto new adventures i guess...

long time no write

It's been a while but i am determined to keep this blog going just for my sanity and to look back and see what i was thinkin and posted to the internet

obviously no one knows who i am and no one reads it which is just how i like it but it is still out there

I have finished my exams now and i do get a bit teary thinking that high school is over. seven years have been completed and now there is no reason for mee to go back- quite sad really

ball saturday and yes i am a little more happier about it- why shouldn't i be it's with my friends and class mates :)

i don't know what else to say really.. i will express what i think again, oo i am going to be posting book review's in the near future soo...

AND I EE I AINT GOING NOWHERE :P

Okayy so i figured i haven't spilled my guts to no one in a while so i thought why not......

I have just watched the sectional episode of Glee :) and i feel all cheerful and mushy and hopeful for love, funny that, how an episode of complete cheese can make you feel positive for i dunno a couple of hours

yes so Glee does actually live up to its name and fills you with Glee
okay now I'm being cheesy!

anything else... hmm...
oh yeah I'm feeling more positive about uni so thats good, still scary tho

and thats about it for now -oo the lights have just gone out

What I'd rather be doing right now...

Well, here I am again writing a load of rubbish from my mind

I am listening to the cheery greatest hits of Shania Twain (how awesome is she?)and wondering what shall I write....

right now i should really be doing my incredibly large piece of coursework for history :S but any distraction possible is tearing me away from it :P

this is what I'd rather be doing -

<> baking a cake or making some biccies!

<> outt! in the sun walking up the shop with a friend to get ice cream!

<> anything but this coursework or anything else that involves work

Of course i know delaying work that has to be done is not good either and every time i end up in panic and full of worry because i have an impossible time to do it, but i never do learn my lesson!

Ah well, i look forward to the worry.... naaat!

Here i go again...

well, here goes

I am in a slightly depressed mood again! arghh :S

and again i feel its the same reasons that i cannot change or alter but that i have to put up with, double argh :S

I feel negative when I'm with what should be my best friend, alarm bells ring you shouldn't be friends with her you think, but i really don't think that is the case.

I think its just that we are two completely different souls and her opinions not only irritate the hell out of me but also upset me, of course she doesn't know this because that would upset her greatly and I'm not that type of person.

I see positive and wonderful aspects to her personality every day but the thing that annoys me the most, which sorry but happens with most people, is the fact that they are so strongly engaged in their own opinion that they never ever EVER see it any other way.. when she feels one way-whether it about someone or something ,there is no thinking any different.Another thing that i really can't stand is how people can judge a person when they might never be in their situation.

I think this just gets to me because i am an open minded person and i would always try to see more than my own perspective of things, and i certainly am not judgemental. Yes i have my opinions who doesn't, but i do not stick like glue to them. I am no way perfect but at least I'm trying to be the best person i can be, i just feel no one else is.

Just some uttered thoughts from my absolute Crazy! mind :P

emotions, crazyy stuff!

Lately I've just been feeling sad and I have no proper reason to feel so

Life is nothing to moan about at the moment, everything's pretty fine which is something not many people get to say but I still can't shake the feeling off.

This makes me feel guitly which then adds to my sadness..

all I can say is humans are crazy things! :P

like the moon, come out from behind the clouds! shine.

(The Buddha)

Little things...

Little things make me happy.

I love nothing better than having a piece of chocolate a diet coke/ fizzy drink/ cider and listening to a great cd.

Bliss hahah!

How I've been feeling recently...

okayyy, I'm going to be honest even if some people might judge me and think ill of me, but..


recently Ive just been picking up on the negative aspects of people's personality even my friends, and I do think to myself aw your not being fair, but that's part of the problem.

We all know nobody's perfect but I feel like no one's trying to make an effort and better themselves, improve their bad side. I mean when an argument breaks out its natural to have your own opinions but do you ever try and see it through someone else's point of view, TRY and understand what they're feeling.

I'm no angel but I feel like I do, maybe I just over analyse everything but I feel I do try and be fair. Well recently I've noticed I think I'm about the only one, and its just made me feel like why do I bother.


You guys probably think what is she making such a fuss about but that's how I've been feeling recently. I'm usually such a laid back person and it normally takes a lot to get me snappy or even irritable but I've noticed a change in myself.

arghh maybe its just a phase, I hope so

Decisions, decisions arghh

I had a conditional offer from Birmingham university and i feel surprisingly happy and positive. Even though i had no thought of actually going, i feel myself imagining actually leaving little old nant and venturing out on my own. Of course this will never happen and so i ask myself is university really the way for me or am i doing it because it's the natural step to take. How do people make these impossible decisions, please tell me. I wish i had a clear plan of action but me never! Well i guess we'll see what happens...

Well Hello,
I decided to create this blog because I realised how much i appreciate someone's words whether it is in a blog, in a book, in a song or even in person. Words have influenced me so much over the years, they can change how I feel in an instant, they can have a positive or a negative impact, they make me think and re evaluate a situation, they are a very important. So, I thought I would like to use words to show people how I feel about certain things and maybe make them think. Maybe no one will listen but I'm okay with that, I just need to do it.